Better today

Allison looks and feels much better today. They added another heart med and also weaned her off the oxygen and so far she's doing great on her own. She really hates the nurses coming in so often to take her vitals. She certainly gives them the stinkeye! We're hoping she'll be able to go home on Wednesday.

The plan is to send her home on all the meds and follow up regularly with her cardiologist (Dr.Lee). We're still trying to figure out when would be best time for the surgery. It's sound like the sooner the better, but it's complicated because of her size. Dr. Lee has been consulting with some cardiologists in Ann Arbor and he thinks it's in her best interest to go there for the surgery.

I've been wondering lately how all of the events of the past weeks are affecting the bonding & attachment process (her to us and us to her). Of course the timing of everything is horrible, but hopefully it will all work itself out.

I'm also concerned about the boys. They're certainly not getting enough attention and I know it's all been very confusing and scary for them too. Ben has been asking a lot of questions lately about death, heaven, sick people, etc. and making connections about how the body works, especially the heart. It's hard to be honest about such matters without scaring him.

I guess all we can do now is just take one day at a time. I can't spend anymore time thinking about the past and I can't waste my energy worrying about the future.